& sometimes I wonder why I miss you so much. When I think back, I realize that most of the time you made me sad instead of happy. We had our moments, but the bad outweighed the good. Over & over again you would hurt me, it was a deadly cycle. I was too blinded by who I thought you were, to notice what a monster you’d become. I made an endless amount of excuses for you & your actions, thinking that eventually you would change. But I knew deep down that you never would. You knew how much I cared about you, so you used that to your advantage. Never once did you think about my feelings. Because you never cared about me the way I cared about you. You never will. Truth is, you made me absolutely miserable. So I wonder what it is that I miss…you hurting me? You treating me like shit? It’s then that I realize I shouldn’t miss you, because you’re not worthy of being missed.
(Source: secretlyloved)
